no.

i need no protecting, if i do ill let you know. if i cant handle it i wont, but im not going to give up without a fight. if i get the chance i will prove you wrong. so very very wrong. im not a weak person. no task is too big to try, and not just for this situation but for any. ive been warned.
i dont give up but im getting bored. if ya wanna get with me better make it fast. [gotta love spicceee girls]
GAHH. BABY???!!! not mine. but seriously that would make next year RULE. its like i dont want it to happen but i kinda do..hehe. that would be HILARIOUS. i get to pick the middle name.
sunday! yayyayayaya. time to be an astronaut.

korea..

KOREA? KOREA?? REALLY? thats alot fucking farther than alaska. dads like 'ehh its like the same'. i just looked at a map and NO IT IS NOT. there is like a whole continent and an ocean between us and KOREA. YEAH. thats where the army wants to send tommy. KOREA. my familys gonna turn asain. oh well. koreans are pretty.

yay day :]

hehe..i think youre cute. god fucking damn it just ask next time. the answer is yes..always yes.
the child gave me a compliment! A COMPLIMENT! i dont think you really understand how hard those are to come by from that one. even though it was indirect, it was just as good. its on record now.

hi my name is alexis and if i dont know you and youre not hotter than a 5 or you are currently with one of my ex's chances are i do not like you.

ughh why must he be so cute? its like hes a...god. haha zoe.
and ive decided that im not jealous anymore, or try my best not to be. because after all, i dont think theres anything really to be jealous of. petty things arent worth the time spent.
k0re4 hasnt hung out in a while. not okay.
blaaah. tired.

i know, but i dont.

i picture you in the sun, wondering what went wrong.
and i try to understand, how you still love her
after she made you so sad.
and it makes me want to cry sometimes,
thinking about all her lies.
and theres something maybe i cant see
an aspect of her mystery.
may satans love be with you always...
1/26 chance.

uhh very excited. 23 days until my life becomes much easier.
bajingo sisters! god he is such a douche but his body is sooo nice. god that was the best realization of the whole weekend.
im starting to think we think too much about the past. because even though it could help us with the future, im not convinced its healthy whatever that means. why is it people have such a hard time letting go, even me. its like i want the past to be the past but somehow thinking about the past makes it the present, which sucks like no other.
ohdangletsbang :P hahahha.letsfixthat.

its like when i'm with you i'm free.

stay out of it, both of you. its neither of you and thats all you should care about.

and fail. its not either of the two people who 95% of you think it is right now.

then whose are they?

eww. i just ate a ripped off piece of paper so i wouldnt have to get up and throw it out. waste not want not i guess.
its like my emotions arent mine anymore. i want to control them. i want to grab them by the neck and throw them out of a speeding car. why the fuck cant i control them. im so confused. i hate this. i love this. everything is perfect but everything seems so wrong. i want not to be the jealous type. what is wrong with me i have nothing to be jealous of. hes not my type i know too much. ive said that before, over and over and over. im not going to let myself have those feelings for someone- for anyone that is. i am always the one that sets myself up for disaster and ends up getting hurt. why when things get good does this always happen. not this time tho, not this time, i promise.

i dont know..this all seems kinda weird. like too good to be true. lets not fuck it up i guess, i dont know what id do. its kinda scary being this close to people and not being able to imagine what life would be like if they went away. then again i guess too close is a good thing..i think.
pray for A. one step closer.
and yes. i guess i called you slick.
k0re4..tighter than the jonas brothers pants.

too many thoughts..

god where do i start. today was..today. it was an interesting one. and who the hell invited you to talk to us and then comment on shit you no nothing about whatsoever? just wondering. you hear it through the grapevine from random ass people AND you only hear one side of it.yeah. colin was right. youre a little bit of a dick so go the fuck away. thank you happy helper, youre no help at all.
and please, girl, if you think IM am angry with you, why dont you try, oh idk, say, talking to ME about it? dont go ask her if im angry, shes not going to tell you. silly. and im not only pissed that you talk to him JUST because i mention him, im pissed that you like, completely ditch us. so yeah, thats right, we started ignoring you too. get it? got it? good. and i am pretty sure she said that walk meant nothing, so good luck if you think you two are bffs again :] OH and let me mention that i dont like him anymore? sorry. he's too not normal. im not ready for that..yet.
and who are you? idk who you are. youre not simple thats for sure..maybe more on that later. but not now. OH. and normal? what the fuck is normal anyway? can someone look it up? thanks..because i dont think youre it. and in that book thats a compliment, but dont take it too far slick. oh, and i dont want my relationship to be my work. all work and no play is no fun. but if work to me IS fun, does it still count, isnt it all about what interests you?
and no. she doesnt like him. look at the first paragraph. he was being a TOTAL dickhead today. total total total. i used to feel bad for him. not anymore. go you. youre the man.
KHore4?
Kore4?
who knows?
ps. grouned for a week. first time in a long time. woohooo!
6days. but really only 4 cuz we go to saratoga friday. yay! but YOURE not gonna be there. bitch. who the hell am i supposed to sit with? feckk. i bet i know who SHE is sitting with? actually i dont, the possibilities are endless. but i bet i know who she ISNT sitting with.

screw it.

yeah..so i kinda just stopped caring.
its not like i control you. i control what i do. not you.
and i give up.
he was right all along. you threw his heart through a woodchopper. you put it in your mouth, chewed it up, spit it out, and threw it into a woodchopper. and i thought he was angry. he was not only angry, he was right about you and i was too naive to see it. you really just dont care about us. i thought you did. and the part that sucks the most is that i fell for it..twice.
stupid blonde. stupid.

one and a half weeks :] i mishh youu!
kore4.

uhhh...

okay, really? can you be more antisocial? now youre being just bitchy. like seriously, who does she think she is? shes NEW. you dont just be someone's friend when its convienient, and dont just ignore people randomly.

and no, i dont think shell go back to him, he doesnt treat her right. it wouldnt be fair to her, him, or you. did you see the way she hugged you when you first arrived? she was so excited. she loves you, not him. but that doesnt mean she cant care about him as a friend. dont expect miracles.