new york city 2 days yes.

where to miss?
to the stars.

complicate things? no. not us.

ouch, that was nice.

not even the rain could put me to sleep.
woodchopper, meet face. face, meet woodchopper.
and yes the same woodchopper that met a certain boy's heart about a year ago.

bittersweet.
bittersweet.
bittersweet.
which is it?
i dont know.
it's both.

the feeling of danger has somewhat passed.
learning to take life as it comes at you...to make each day count.
after all, you only live once,
and i hate to see life slip through my fingers.

so much for not blogging.

i have this weird thing where i cant take my own advice.
not everything has to be complicated. we make things complicated.
and even things that are complicated, we manage to make more complicated.

relationships can only be sustained if honesty is the base on which theyre built.

spring fever.

i think im back on my wavelength, as alena would put it.

two months ago i asked for commitment and you said no
and i regretted every second of it.
"i thought you were done with him" she said
apparently we had some unfinished business.
because the truth is i havent stopped thinking about it since we broke it off.
youre interesting,
youre interested.
you put me back in my summer mindset.
i love summer.
and the greatest part is, in summer i dont care what happens.

i cant wait to watch you fail. and everyone will be telling everyone else i told ya so...cunt.

saint patrick's day: it is the closest that the irish will ever get to christmas.
i love the office too.

and i think this is the end of the blog for awhile. no one needs to know everything. its what consciences and dreams and the last five minutes of every class period are for- to think. and if i want to write, ill write. and if i want to think, ill think.
and one last thing: new york city. and florida with turned off phones and waves and boys. all within three weeks. best april ever.

cherish who you have to hold
cause they wont always be there for you.

this then going to bed.

being best friends with the opposite sex is easier said than done.
i think we've all proven that.
and if youre saying...'not really',
then i encourage you to think of a situation where there hasnt been complications.
then, when feelings get involved, you might as well have your friends choose sides right then and there, because it will not work out under any circumstances.
again, at one point or another weve all proven that.
you cant have your cake and eat it too
you just cant.
life isnt that nice.
this is based off of both observations (plural) and personal experience.

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we cant avoid it. why is this happening? what happened to my best friend? and its not just me, the other one gets it too. if you still read this, which you probably dont, know i really miss you. you were my best friend. but we havent talked much in weeks. how can i be best friends with someone i never talk to? i dont want to accept drifting. its happened before with others. i dont want it to happen with you. no. i love you too much. we used to be so open with each other, now one by one bricks are being built up between us. was it something i said?

it's weird that im even more done now than i was before.

subconsciously you dont sleep with him because you want control. if you sleep with him you wont have it, and youll be miserable, point blank. we desire control because it's a safety blanket. if we were all to let go of it, think of the possibilities.

done. done. done. done. done.