rewind.

thinking in the shower where i was a year ago.
who i was friends with
what i did on weekends
what i never thought id be doing on weekends now
what i thought id never do period.
the friends:
chocolate bear, the girl who said more to me today alone than in the last four months combined. i actually realized i missed that. even if it was about socrates.
frodo, the kid with the dirty fingernails who at one point i almost knew inside and out and dont even recognize anymore
the heart breaker, who i could have sworn that i secretly wanted to marry in the long run because as messed up as he was i knew he was going places in life [i was right]. the one who still slips into my dreams every now and then, yeah i wish thatd stop. you gave me my second and third broken heart, good job.
the funny one obsessed with her boyfriend, yes zoe that was you a year ago. i remember when we used to talk about how you spent too much time with matt sprague and not enough time with us. haha
shaggy, the stoner and best friend to frodo. the one i hardly knew and was slightly afraid of, actually extremely afraid of. who knew we'd come this far. i love you like a brother and i can honestly say youre my best friend.
none of these relationships are the same as they were a year ago. the first two are practically gone, the third i wish to forget about, the fourth has recently been in rehabilitation, and the fifth has its ups and downs. the rest of the people i associate myself with today came later in life, after midterms. i just want to go back to one of the days a year ago and slow it down. cherish it. be thankful for what i had. im thankful for what i have now, but from time to time i miss what i had then.