why so sad?

i dont believe im thinking about this again.
ugh. but, you asked. and i wanna blame you for asking
but i should blame myself for telling.
i used to wonder how itd be better to lose it,
to someone you really had feelings for
or to a fling youd never see or talk to again.
fortunately, or unfortunately, i lost it to both.
guess it depends on how you look at it.

and that text made my cry.
"is it alright if i just invited her to see the movie with us?"
no. its not. but would i ever say that to you? no.
because youre ecstatic that you have a girlfriend,
and i helped set you up with her.
but having a girlfriend changes everything.
i told you things wouldnt be the same.
whered my best friends go?

it seems like everyone's moving on but me.
but i guess that's my own fault.
and a part of me's glad you guys miss the summer shine, too.
but parts of it i dont miss i guess.