i dont know who i hate more.

at first it was going to be 'i hate you.' because i do. i hate you so much. i want you gone. forever. you said the other night that i probably still hated you, and i said no, i stopped about two months ago. well, your back on the shit list bud.
then it was going to be 'i hate her'. but if i dont even know her how can i hate her? i dont know but i do. shes a whore. shes a slut. i wish evil upon her.
but it ended up being 'i dont know who i hate more.' becuase honestly i dont. i hate you at about 100% right now. and i hate her about 120%. but i hate myself more than that combined. TWICE. i let myself fall. and honestly. im the only one to blame.
you made me cry. actually. no. youre making me cry. and cry. and cry. it was a good night. i had fun tonight. YOU FUCKING RUINED IT. YOU SELFISH BASTARD. I DONT THINK YOU HAVE A CONSCIENCE. I HATE YOU AND EVERY FIBER OF YOUR BEING. GO TO HELL YOU FUCKING JACKASS.
after january and february, i tried to think of reasons to hate you. and now i have one. thank you.
i would say i have closure. but i am going to text you tomorrow night to see if we can talk. then i will have closure.
what was i anyway. YOU DONT FUCKING LOVE HER. or maybe i made you realize you do love her. and good for you. but whatever. because after that shit you pulled i dont think you deserve to be happy anymore.