youre hands amaze me. ugh. this is so weird. and i want things to be the way they used to so bad. but part of me thinks they shouldnt be. its like i dont know what i want. i want you to pick one of us. not her and me. idk. i dont know what goes on behind closed doors, obviously. and i think its kinda gross for lack of a better word. youre just. special to me still i guess. i dont know. whatever. dont read too much into this. but its weird because you kind of surprise attacked me. its like i never realized how much i was hurt by you until this week. and it kinda makes me sadface.